I want a vacation so badly

Have you ever feel that you need a vacation so badly? You want breakaway or break free? I have these feeling but I need to hold on to them. My baby boy is nine month old so depending on sleeping in sarong we cannot go anywhere for holiday except go back dear hometown.

I hope next trip back there we can go beach, they live about 30min drive to beach and you know they never go beach. It is sad to see that they have no interest to go. Yet I am adventurous and looking for fun I want to go kick sand and wave.

Why is it the commitment giving me harsh time.